Lights, Camera, Action: What Happens When A Porn Star Fails To Perform

I forget her name, but she is a true to form, cold-as-ice professional; that is, shes on the clock.

She isnt here for the sex, only the paycheck.

She doesnt want to me to kiss her. She doesnt want me to touch her hair. She doesnt want to touch me if I am not already hard, and especially not until cameras are rolling.

She requests to not have to suck my dick after it is to be inserted inside of her. And to make matters even worse, my costar is on her period, so the industry standard method of shoving a makeup sponge deep within the vaginal cavity in an effort to um — plug the hole, has rendered her completely dry.

My costars disdain for everyone around her, particularly myself, is beyond palpable, and that tension leaves me hopeless.

I try to hold a conversation with this woman. Forget getting a hard-on; she is incongruous with what makes me vascular, leaving me limp and about as firm as a wet noodle.

Everyones attitude changes the moment wood troubles begin on set.

The director tries to remain calm and sympathetic, but I can read between the lines; I can see the look of disappointment on his face.

I sequester myself in the bathroom.

Just give me a minute! I call out, as I sit on the toilet seat trying to squeeze life back into my dick. Its useless.

I hear them all whispering about me, and I cant concentrate. I lose all interest and motivation. I no longer feel sexy or aroused, just weak and embarrassed.

I have never in my life thought the day would come when the communication between my mind and my manhood would be severed, especially not after giving up everything, leaving my family behind and dropping out of college to become a bonafide, mother f*cking PORN STAR.

I am left unable to do my job.

I fail.

I go home defeated. I think my career — or whatever semblance of a career I had established up until this point — is over.

My mind is racing with questions like:

Will they ever hire me again?

Will word spread?

Am I gay?

Feeling less than zero, I call my agent and tell him the bad news. He laughs at me over the phone.

Big f*cking deal. This was bound to happen sooner or later, kid. Everyone has bad days.

Not everyone. Not me.

Look, they cant all be home-runs. But remember, youre only as good as your last scene, you understand? You start making this a regular thing and soon nobody is gonna book you.

Well, sh*t. What am I supposed to do?

You want a guarantee? Go pay a visit to The Doctor. Hell give you exactly what you need.

I am nearly six-months into my porn career at this point; I havent exactly declared my official arrival, so to speak.

I am still new, still green. I have to keep working; I have to keep shooting if I want to succeed.

I cant afford to lose my edge, so I follow my agents advice and take out an insurance policy on my career.

The Doctor is the industrys primary care physician. He runs an urgent care clinic in the armpit of the valley. I enter his office and one of the nurses leads me to a neglected examination room. With stale lights and stained walls it resembles something straight out of Requiem for a Dream. I sit anxiously atop the wax paper.

Ten minutes later The Doctor walks in.

So, Sporto, I hear youre in dirty movies and you want some medicine, yeah? Well, we can get you fixed up with whatever you need: Viagra, Levitra, Cialis, even Caverject if you dont mind jabbing a needle into yourself.

What? Uh, No, thats okay, Doc, Ill just stick with the pills, the Viagra.

No problem, Sporto. Whatever you want. You need anything else? Maybe some antibiotics? Do you have a scratchy throat? Could be gonorrhea, you know. A shot in the butt and a Z-pack would clear that right up for you.

No thanks, Doc. Im fine. Just the Viagra, please.

Sure, sure. Got a script written up right here for you. He hands me the slip of paper. Just take this to any pharmacy and youll be good to go.

He opens the door and shoos me out.

Okay, have fun; take care of yourself, Sporto. See you soon.

I am dizzy by the time I leave his office. I get into my car and drive to the nearest CVS. With my script in hand, I approach the pharmacy counter, doing my best to remain inconspicuous.

Hi, I just wanted to drop this off.

Sure, whats your date of birth?

October 17, 1990.

And whats the medication?

Under my breath I mutter, Uh, Viagra.

Im sorry?

Viagra.

Right. Okay, sir, how many pills would you like?

Well, how many can I get?

The max is 10.

That sounds good.

Just so youre aware, the price will be $220.

Holy shit. For 10pills?

Yes sir.

Uhokay then, I guess Ill take it.

Thirty minutes later, my prescription is filled and I leave with my first bottle of magic blue pills.

They are my new best friends and most trusted allies in my male performer tool belt.

Hereafter, all of my on-camera erections will grade nothing short of pharmaceutical.

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